I recently turned 26.
I feel like this next coming year for me will be an important one. I have a gut feeling, good will come but I have to take the bad also. I feel like I’m more prepared than ever. Honestly the past few weeks or so I’ve surprised myself in so many ways. It’s like I feel myself evolving and becoming the person that I was meant to be.
Work has been going ok. I’m learning more things every week and I’m enjoying it. Really trying to put myself out there and be more confident you know. My team consists of men and 2 women including myself so it’s very different but friendships are being established. My health has been very odd though. I have had Anaemia on and off for years now and when it decides to show up it always makes a show.
Now to be honest I’m actually very surprised that my anxiety has managed to stay so stable. Usually when I feel anything off with my body I start to tense up and panic but I’ve been really calm. Yes my anxiety at times does get triggered more easily but I think I’ve handled it in a way where I can cope. Even while I’m at work.
So my anaemia symptoms, the first 1 that I noticed was the fact that I can hear my own heartbeat and blood rushing in my veins. Which is really annoying and yes a weird symptom but it’s a symptom.. You can look it up haha. Next would be headaches where my head feels physically heavy like I have to lean on something to be able to bare it. Again annoying. Next is the tiredness and I didn’t clock this until the other day how I’ve been so tired lately but not so much a lack of energy. I just want to sleep all the time. Anyways, so these are my usual symptoms which sound like nothing but Anaemia can become very serious very quickly. Today I managed to sort some Iron tablets for myself which should sort me out in a couple of weeks. It usually does. If not then it’ll have to be a trip to the hospital but I don’t think it will come to that.
Other than that I’m sort of happy with life. There are things I want to do in 2019 and I don’t think I’ll be truely happy until I do them. They’re things I can achieve so I know I’ve got this. I just have to keep reminding myself why.
I’m really in the mood to get a new tattoo. I know what I want it to be I just don’t know where to put it. I think I’ll get it done sometime soon, a little gift for myself. You know how I’m not girly? Well yesterday I bought glue on nails just to try and I don’t know what to do with myself haha. It’s so weird. Never had nails this long in my life but it’s just a test so we’ll see if I actually keep them. I know, random but I think I want to just start telling you guys about my days and not just the depressing cycles and struggles that I have. Although I’ll still more than likely be venting on here.
I’ll try to get back into the habit of posting weekly but I’m not making promises. I hope you all are doing ok and are coping. Stay strong guys
Until the next one